227 (and then some)Days of "Strawberry Jam" without "J"
Dear Jam,
Hey! First carbonated bevy float from Mcky D's! We had a little drop off to buy lunch since I was too tired to lift a finger and cook. I'm a little disoriented and a bit more distracted about what to do for my out-of-town job. There's a tug-of-war in my head right now as to whether I should bring you with me or not. But since Nahnang cannot be uprooted from Kauswagan, I have no choice but to leave you there with her. Now, I am hesitant because this will have been the first time I am leaving you - overnight. And maybe, another day more. It all depends on what happens there.
There was a blackout in the morning at Kauswagan. But it was a short intermission so I didn't fuss because it came back before you could even wake up in the heat of the room sans electric fan. What concerns me though is the fact that it has been happening more often. Signs of the end-of-the-world? Or have I been reading too much fatalistic theories of Armageddon and End of Days in LISTVERSE? Nah. I think I am also worried because I'll be leaving you in
Kauswagan and I can only imagine how you would squirm in the heat of the house.I went to pay our bill this month, taking a little time with the owner's (husband's) teasing about being married to a seafarer. It turns out that most of the owner's brothers are seafarers, too. The missus tried to stave off thoughts and warned her husband not to aggravate me with ideas of infidelity and such. I took no offense and even if I wanted to explain to them why, I didn't bother. Besides, it's our life and hadn't the Mister been there, our kind landlady wouldn't pother to share as much dirty laundry from her family closet. But I would have said that many have little faith for men who work overseas. What with the stigma attached to the profession of the seaman thus the term "seamanloloko". See, I am one of those but I choked on my words when I met your Daddy. Infidelity happens, overseas or not and - there is always a solution to whatever damage it brings. For me, if Daddy is happier that way, I wouldn't force him to stay with us and I wouldn't force us to stay with him if it doesn't make us happy. You should be big enough to be reading this Pumpkin, it breaks my heart to be telling you this. But for now, we are blessed as a family though Daddy and I aren't married and that should be enough.
On a HAPPIER note about Daddy...he does have a way of making me smile. In his own little ways. One of his "little ways" today was to add two sweet lines of Ivatan in his e-mail. He said "Tsadaw koy nyo atavo" and "Kaypyan kamo nu dyos". I only understand "tsadaw koy" and it threw me off to a wild guess that maybe "nyo atavo" means you all and "kamo nu Dyos" is you your God...something like to be cared of by your God. Thanks to your Tita Glenda, I was close enough. She even gave me a quick Ivatan 101 when I posted Daddy's line as my Facebook status. She corrected the line spellingwise that is should be "Chaddao ko'y nyo atavu. Kapian kamu pa nu Dios". I don't know, I spaced out for awhile. It's like listening to a whole different language from ethereal beings. Beautiful! She said I should answer Daddy with "As kan imu pa...makai pa din dao" which means "Also you...take care!" and if I wanted to say "everyday" with my "I love you" to Daddy, I should say "Chaddao koi imo kararaw." I am so excited to tell Daddy that. *gah* I just feel
suspended in Cloud 9 knowing all these, that's a new lingo to my learning well. I agreed with your Tita Glenda when she said Ivatan sounds like original Ivatan words with Tagalog and Spanish words thrown in. That's what makes it easier for me to pull in a guess, thanks to the Tagalog and Spanish hints I am familiar with. I am looking forward for some learning sessions with your Tita Glenda as she offered to teach me a little bit more. I think I should take that offer. I am also looking forward for Daddy to say more of those darling words.I am all packed. *sigh* It's like I'm going to leave you for a long time. Well, in a way yes. This is
the first time and it's going to affect your sleep and mine. But I made sure, 
even as preoccupation was nagging at me, to spend a little quality time with you. We watched GLEE Season 1 in DVD where you sang as they sang and where you asked me to stand up with you to dance when they danced. Our electric fan is busted so we are using the AC for the first time and that makes this evening even more memorable as you slept calmly under your comforter in the nice ventilation. I am going to miss you, no exaggeration. You were a sight when you went through your Father Cat's Busy Day book again like you'd never get tired of it. You read it like you could read the words off as they are spelled and spoke to an imaginary student, which was no other than yourself. I think you'll manage. I have to admit, like me, you are a survivor.
JAMantic of the Day:
Nahnang joined us for a while in the pad where we served her as any laundromat would. She took their soiled clothes to wash here since Mamilou has been busy with work after Paddylou's hospitalization. Why not? We spent a little time together, eating Mcky D's where you strongly asserted when and when not to feed you. The "aysa!" or "wait" made it clear to us that you didn't want the burger yet because you were still eating the fries. Hahah!
Your Mommy,
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